-What a battle!- was the first thought in Tobi's mind as the two rams finished their fight. Tobi was a little disappointed that Chirin lost, but it had been one heck of a battle, and absolutely spectacular to watch. He had sort of guessed that Chirin would lose, though, even though he had fervently hoped it would be different. In his own experience, bigger pokémon nearly always won in a battle of brute strength. To take on someone that outmatched you in strength, you had to be clever and fast and do tricky things, but that apparently wasn't the point of this kind of battle. He couldn't help but hold his head, though, thinking of the splitting headache he'd have gotten if he'd done something like that. The fire kit wondered for a moment if Chirin and Weedu would have migraines to rival a Psyduck's by the next morning. Maybe not as bad, since the Ampharos were apparently built to take that kind of thing, but still... Tobi winced -- it sure looked painful. All he knew is that he would never think of his own Headbutt attack in the same way again, not after seeing the pros in action. Ray didn't make a move to head down there...he was too tired, for one, and they probably wanted some time alone. If not for what had happened to him, he would be one of those rams right now. He wondered if his lot in life were really all that bad. In his very short amount of experience by observation, rams seemed very prone to conflict. Surely there were better ways to use your head. "I'm going to sleep," he said to Tobi, "I'll see how things are in the morning." Who knew if the fight would erupt again if he went down there now? "Hmm? Oh, okay," Tobi answered absentmindedly, still watching Chirin and Weedu. The match seemed to be totally over, though, and Chirin looked kind of wobbly from the beating he had taken. Nothing else would happen, the Cyndaquil thought, they were too tired to battle more. "Well, I guess I'll go to sleep too," he told Ray. He really was tired, after all that walking and running he had done earlier, but he hadn't wanted to sleep while the action was going on. Now that it was over, he could finally rest. Curling up on the ground, he watched Chirin through nearly-closed eyes for a little while longer, as sleep started to overcome him. ~ Chirin took his time getting up, not because he wanted to, but because he had just had the strength slammed out of him. His spine hurt, his limbs hurt, his throat and lungs hurt...his head hurt. The light within the jewl on his forehead pulsed in the last flame of a burned out rebellion. He was a weak ram in the end...maybe all of the luck he had had had raised his expectations too much. Maybe it would have been better if he had not been so built up. But it couldn't change things now, wishing things had been different. All Chirin could do was get to his feet and blink to Weedu in submission, but the flickers became flashes. Through his neutral gaze his lights betrayed him. Ray was glad he had settled down not far from his dear old friend Selenity, too, as he closed his oen eyes and slept. Down below, there wasn't much going on. ~ Chirin and Weedu didn't meet eyes. The fight was over and he watched Weedu wander over towards Pyon and Tess--but not too close. Heh, Chirin was momentarily glad the huge ram was around, just to put him in his place, in turn. The realization of what he was thinking and feeling, sucked the brightness from Chirin's bulbs. What had he turned into--spewing such negative vibrations? He quickly tried to smear away those thoughts and replace them with something more n the way of a congratulations. Weedu would probably be taking this a whole lot better. Chirin wandered away from the area alone. He needed time to think to himself and lose the aftermath of the battle that still pulsed its aching in the pit of him. *Ysgard.* Chirin walked in the cool air under the half dark moon. The stars felt distant, detached from their brethren down on this ridge tonight. He kicked a pebble in front of him. Weedu had gone to sleep, bedding down near the others. Chirin was exhausted but he could do anything but sleep. Recovered for a while from the battle, he stepped up onto a path leading north of the flock. Not far...just far enough to get his bearings and think. The presence of others had suddenly become too much to take. "Don't feel bad," Crazy Lights said, his cheeks moving as he chewed cud. "I've lost battles too...we all do. You know you're doing pretty well for a ram who's not even two yet. Weedu is a big amp...all those Mure rams were. He's older than you, and a bit bigger. By next year-- if you keep growing like this you'll be towering over him! By next fall you'll put him in his place. Maybe even Pyon!" Chirin looked at him with a smile, one brow lifted. Crazy Lights did a flip and hovered upside down, head level with Chirin's. "Okay, maybe not -that- big...but you've got some good size coming! Once Tess is mated, then everything can be nice and relaxed and she can just be your light-friend again." "I know." Knowing didn't change how he felt. Maybe he just wasn't used to losing...all his pleads to the spirits going unanswered. "Maybe--I need a new antler charm. It did wonders for me last fall!" Chirin picked up a pebble and threw it out into the dark vista. He shook his head. "Crazy Lights, I don't know...I'm not losing my touch, am I?" "You? Lose your touch?" Chirin watched his imaginary friend leap and spin while orbiting around him. He turned in a circle, following him. "It's just one lost battle! Do you think Pyon got to where he is in less than two years? *Phara!*" "You have a point," said Chirin, not feeling quite so bad--but still staring out there, looking for something that he didn't hold in his flippers or wear round his neck right now. He knelt and put his nose lightly to one of the stones in the outcrop. He spoke to it. *Send me Haru's power--send me greater strength and size to...* To beat Weedu? No...that still wouldn't do it. *Send me the speed and cleverness to slip in there when the timing is best.* Chirin kept his hands laid on the rock, feeling its cool energy on his still hot palms. His arms were shaking under the weight of his head and shoulders. It was time for him to head back and sleep. Chirin couldn't leave yet. Casting his head jewel down in front of him, he prodded his hoof through the pebbles until he found one he could use for a form. Murmuring, *Ysgard strong, Deyu wise, I made this offering for your eyes,* he drew, and what came out of a long painstaking scratch of white lines on the dark grey face was an ampharos ram from the belly up, flippers outstretched...sporting a crown of stantler antlers. Tears came to Chirin's eyes as he leaned onto the stone, scratching a white head jewel onto the form's forehead. Hiro had barely flicked an ear at the outcome of the battle. Even though Chirin hadn't been the winner, it didn't matter that much to Hiro. As long as the ampharos wasn't too hurt, that was the thing that mattered. And he was also rather glad that the fighting was over. No more worrying about it, at least for right now... The nidoran lay down on the grass, allowing himself to stretch and relax. Ahh...although it wouldn't be too good to allow himself to relax TOO much. He kept his ears perked up, letting his hearing be the one thing that kept him somewhat alert. Chirin added more touches on the form, scratched in lines that often did not connect, lines different from how he usually applied them. but the form was his alone--his style. different spirits guided him each time. He considered drawing legs onto the form, but an image so evocative could easily walk on its own. Who knew what it would do if he gave it the power to step from the stone? He had definitely created a form under the influence of Pandemonium, and Pande was a someone--a something--he had never come close to understanding. He stared at it a long time, wondering where his light-path was headed to from here. No matter what it was that he tried to grab a hold of, something always came to take it away. Sometimes it was some evil thing...sometimes it was him. He would give anything for Calima to be back in this realm. He didn't care how dangerous she had been, it hadn't been her fault and now there was no way to free her. Come spring he would visit the curséd glade, where her spirit lived. He had always told himself he would never go back but all of a sudden he felt called there very strongly. "Calima? Calima..." Chirin shut out the pain and closed his eyes. ~I love you, Chirin...~ Had any of his other light-friends told him that...no, only her and Spiney, who had been her...but she had grown distant and vanished on him as Calima's spirit must have left her. ~Haru, Haru.~ He was this form, the form was him. He remembered the itchiness of the disguise, the furtive, frantic piling of debris and mud over himself in the little stand of trees. The sound of dead branches scraping... and the weight of the stantler skull on his head. Chirin lit his spirit light as he laid his hands on the newly drawn form. He stared into the memories that the stone evoked. It was a long time before he got up, checked around for enemies with his sweeping lights and, finding the pathway clear, hiked back up towards the flock. He left behind a small arrangement of pebbles and pellets of cud by the foot of the stone. Clef cast a shady eye on him as he walked, ears burning. ~ Stickerbush branches pricked the flaaffy's wool and caught in it. "Ummmff," he tugged at the short wild fleece, yanking it free at the cost of a few more scratches on his face. He kept his light low and wandered up through the grass, scaling the mountain. He knew he wasn't supposed to be here, he was supposed to be back safe in Mudmere! But he had been told to find the arrowroot plant...and had had ot luck in procuring any. He couldn't go back to the Mure'mar without it....not lately with the Mure'mar in unpredictable moods. It probably wasn't making his master any happier that he was out so late...but then, why was Mure'mar's light shining up there? He knew it--he'd been caught out. There was no use hiding, he knew that when Mure'mar caught him out, hiding only made it worse. The flaaffy picked the litter of the undergrowth from his fleece as he crept, shoulders hunched, from the cover of the woods' edge. He didn't want to keep Mure'mar waiting for him. "Muh--Mure'mar?" His bleat trembled out of him as he stopped in the open. He was a flaaffy feeling quite alone--not a good thing. This must be part of his punishment. His call had come too quietly for Mure'mar to have heard him--but he couldn't bring himself to bleat any louder. He shivered in the cool night. It was getting very late. Keeping his tail light as dim as it could go he trusted the Mure'mar's predictions and magic to keep him safe from the demons and their false lights as he came closer. ~ Chirin took every step imagining that his feet carried a body more suited to the size they'd grown to. He imagined his musk reaching to the ends of the sea. It must be...His head pulsed with the beat of the long day behind him. It must work, the spirits must take his offering and grant him something to work with, build on. Chirin held his arms out to balance as he walked along the edge of a rock. It must be. The tall, gawky ram walked with his head still downcast. He didn't see the flaaffy coming over the ridge on the opposite side of the mountain. He found where the other sheep were mostly asleep by now, clustered in twos and threes high up on the ridge. He sought out Selden. The young ram was sleeping next to that mareep, whose name he still had not been given. Knowing how jittery young ewes and lambs could be around big rams like him (although not big enough, he thought) he looked around for Ray. The eunuch lay sleeping peacefully by Selenity and Mimishi. Phebes and Nokotta slept the highest up on the ledge, nd Chamadis was with them. Weedu was asleep relatively untouched by others, but Chirin...didn't feel like him for company. Chirin looked away from the flock and growled. Wandering round the outskirts, he plopped himself on the cool grass to the northern side of the flock and lay his head down. He whispered the song of Phos alone and arranged some nearby pebbles into a little circle by his head. The moon moved on as he fell asleep with one ear against the little hoop, thinking the words, ~And from the darkness save me.~ ~ The flaaffy crept nervously up to where he had seen his master's light. It was gone now--and he could see others, a whole bunch of others not far down the mountain, just on the other side. He realized how far out of the way he was. Evil ones! They couldn't see him--they couldn't! Terrified, he crept towards the rock with his tail wrapped in front of him. The blue light flickered on the face of the stone. He gazed at the form and gasped. ~Mure'mar...!~ He reached out a flipper to touch the form, glancing around him, as if he were doing something forbidden and wanted to make sure no one was looking. Mure'mar must have made this...but, sniffing the ground around it, he smelled a stranger. How? The flaaffy reached a trembling pink palm towards the head of the antlered figure scratched out on the rock. He tagged it and then dashed down the mountainside, feeling a pinch of guilt, a heart full of mischief and fear. He had touched the work of either his master or a demon denryuu--and might never know for sure which. ~ Chirin took a long time to fall asleep. The pain had receded, leaving this ache that went beyond his nerve endings. He lay with his scarred yellow back to the flock, curled up and feeling alone. There was nothing for him to do but go to the dream-realms and find something there for him. Tomorrow things would get better--because he had some spell-castings to do, both for Nokotta and her lost lamb--and himself. He had so much to be thankful for, he thought as his awareness withdrew deeper into himself, leaving the outside behind. Then why did he feel anything but thankful right now--why this desperation? He gave up on trying to understand it--it wouldn't make the feelings go away. Autumn leaves and *pia* creatures appeared in forests in his mind and he imagined himself walking with pride, double the size he was now. He imagined himself with antlers in spirit, decked out like Haru as he slipped into sleep. His gift wandered out as he slumbered, chasing breezes, tumbling through stone and bone and bracken. Odd eddies of air whirled around him and ruffled the fleeces of the wooled sheep. Here and there a spark cracked alone, falling out of its hiding place in the air. ~ Bramble-scratched and tired, the flaaffy made his way through the coat of brush and scrubby forest blanketing the lower slopes of the mountain. He climbed up over rough rock and sticks, trying to get to a place far up and that he should already be in. He didn't know what was more terrifying--the thought of being seen by a demon incarnate or being caught out this late by his master. Sometimes the Mure'mar was kind...other times, you never knew. Being back late by itself wouldn't have been so bad, if not for his coming home with flippers empty. No arrowroot found, no way for the Mure'mar to cast his spell. He needed that plant. And he would send him out to get it again tomorrow. but then, why wasn't the punishment falling on his shoulders already, if Mure'mar had seen him there by the form he had just made? He knew there was a reason for everything Mure'mar did--he as the lowly learner, had yet to understand them. ~ Chirin woke up early. The time before dawn had always been one of his favorite times to be alive. Chirin's hand found the ring of pebbles he had left by his head to ward off the evil spirits while he dreamed, and he smiled at it. "thank you for keeping me safe." He had had an awful night last night, but no matter. He was nothing if not determined and believing fully that he could make things better. He had developed his magic powers to such a greater extent during his time in the jungle, that before long he would make his situation change for the better. He would concoct it, stir up a chance for himself to mate with Tess. Chirin got up, feeling the battle's echoes in his body. He did his stretches, ran his flippers over his body. He kneaded the sore muscles, lounged around and enjoyed making different positions, like laying with his feet tickling the sky. And he gave the grass around him a good roll in it. Feeling less the loser, he stood up and looked around at the flock as it began to wake up to Phos's routine. He sauntered over to a patch of grass that was just calling to him to bury his mouth in it and make it one with himself. He took up its offer, letting his senses swim in the delight of chewing rich, juicy grass. He didn't need to sing right now because the morning was singing to him. Why the change of mood, why was he so up? Amazing what the spirit world could do. So he had lost. He was more sure than ever, now, that his ancestors had visited him in his sleep and sprinkled an extra touch of whatever made his magic work. "Good morning," said Phebes through a yawning mouth. She blinked bleary eyes at Chirin. Chirin found himself yawning... it was contagious. Something about the sight, even the thought of a face stretching wide, pulling the mouth as open as it could go in a wonderful facial extreme just brought it on. The yawn felt good. (ooc: did you just yawn?) "Good morning," he said, "and how were your dream-journeys?" "Oh, good I guess," said Phebes. "I don't remember them anymore, I can't remember my dreams." "What I find works," said Chirin, "is to think hard on them when you first wake up. That always helps me. Also, singing and talking about them helps even more, there is something about words that make things stronger and more permanent." Words carried a strong magic power. "Hmm, I guess," said Phebes rolling some cud around in her mouth. Chirin grazed by her side for a while, just glad that she was close by and not afraid of him...not like last night when he had been so alone. That was a place he didn't ever want his soul to go to again. ~ Mimishi woke up startled by the new smells. Her eyes popped open before she remembered last night. The strange ram musk still made her a little uneasy, but last night she had talked a talk and hugged a hug that she probably should have done a long time ago with Chirin. She felt like something troubling was laid to rest finally. Now would be the task of not letting things like that build up inside her again. It was a hard enough task just to get herself up to graze. Mimishi grunted as she rolled on her side and then on all fours, snipping any grass right around her. Nokotta was already up. she stared out at thr rising sun as if to say a rather tired good morning to Phos, like he was an old friend that didn't inspire her so much with his rising like maybe he once had. Chirin crossed the grass to meet her. "Good morning." His words were laden with the memory of the talk they had had last night. She had spoken of the frightening events of last summer--and despite knowing it had been an evil time, he wanted to learn more. "good morning--and don't worry about getting the spell done right away. A rushed spell wouldn't work as well anyway and there is no rush. Do whatever you feel you have to do for it to come out right." "You don't have to tell me that," said Chirin. "But thank you. What i should know are any things that would help me make a clearer form of Sky and think clearer thoughts of him. I know that this might be painful for you, but you will have to help me with the spell. You are the one who bore him and who remembers him. You're closer to him than I could ever be." "Yes...but you are closer than you think, all the same. He is Gunya's," said Nokotta. "He is your family too." Chirin blinked yes. "And you don't have to worry about hurting me with any of this. I came to you, Chirin...I';m prepared to do whatever it takes." Why him? he wondered, stopping to nibble on the bush they had wound up walking past. He was not exactly the typical consultant for spells...he was very young, for one thing, and for another, he was a ram. Rams had magic potential just like ewes did, but it was without a doubt that the most powerful magic belonged to the oldest ewes. Those with the longest light-paths as well as a ewe's insight. He wondered what he was missing. Maybe it was partly because ewes banged their heads a whole lot less? "what're you smiling about?" Nokotta, smiling herself, raised a brow at him from the other side of the bush. "Oh nothing, just pondering the reasons why you are so sure that I will be able to carry out this spell--I mean, and make it work. I feel like I should tell you--I am not trained by the old ewes of my flock. I was torn away from them last summer..probably not long after you lost your own..." "I see," said Nokotta as she watched the realization sink in. Chirin was shuddering and shaking. He turned to Nokotta and took her flippers in his. "could there be a connection? When you say dark spirits took Sky away," he kept his voice low and glanced around, "was there anything of the *burakos* themselves?" "The humans?" said Nokotta, already blinking no. "Not a trace of them, except for the fact that badness happened. And I've seen plenty of evil in this world that is not human." "It is still possible that it happened," said Chirin, "and that the two snatchings may be tied together. I am almost certain that they are." His blood was flowing now, and the ancestors in him were excited. He had more of a reason to do this spell, for it wasn't just a favor to Nokotta anymore--it was for, possibly, getting his own flock back too! The spirits were clamouring around them and the bush they nibbled on breathed with them. "i hear you, spirits," he said. "nokotta, can you hear them and feel them close by? There is a connection and they feel it--they are speaking to us, big and small spirits." "I'm afraid I don't quite sense them like you seem to,' said Nokotta, "but yes...I can feel the air has taken on a rosier feeling." "That's the feeling--they are connecting with us!" Chirin flashed his lights and flung his flippers in their air, bleating to the morning. "You ought to have been a mud-reader," said Nokotta as she watched him throw himself into a brief dance. the name cut his prancing off short. He froze and stared. To Chirin's startled look she said, "No, not Mure--whatever they did, they probably call themselves that to evoke the powers that the magical ones always had." "Mud-readers?" said Chirin. He felt a tingle of his current at the sound of the name. "Yes, that's right, you are not familiar with them? It is something in legend," said Nokotta, "but they died out with the last one who disappeared and left no one trained in his wake. It is said that the mountains to the north are still enchanted by the magic of the pools, but that they reveal themselves to no one and anyone who tries to go there, gets hopelessly lost. Because there is no longer a mud-reader, a magic-maker to control this wild magic and stop it from hurting things. More than that, I don't know...except," and she lowered her voice to a whisper, "that that light you saw last night, up on that northern mountaintop alone, is said to be one of the spirits that haunts it...the spirit of the last of them." Chirin remembered the light and felt like it was much colder here than it was. Sparks snapped over his hide and his tail curved, rubbed its orb against his leg and flank. It drew a treadline of sparks over him. "When I was a young lamb, they said that there was still a reader-of- the-pools there. People would consult him to tell the future. He could see the future and see the spirits. He could weave spells and always he worked his magic round the pools...pools that spoke only to those trained well to listen and look. It is this unharnessed spirit power that I fear took my lamb away--and others in the past further back. now and then they say that lambs disappear and worse--all because of these spirits of unrest. Some say that the mud-readers themselves are in on it, their spirits are unhappy because they have been forgotten." "Good Phos," Chirin swished his tail around to toss some light onto a talk that was sure beginning to need it. All this talk of evil spirits would only get the wrong unseen-ones listening, but he kept talking anyway, with voice lowered. "I feel weird that I never heard mention of it...not once. I've never heard of a reader of the pools." "You're from what flock?" "The beacon flock of Pharos." He flashed his tail reflexively. "The south...Well, they probably knew about it, but you said you were just a lamb when you left." "I was." Chirin sorted through his memories of his flock to see if there had been any mention of them...the name remained unfamiliar. ~ Chama, still asleep, felt the wind against his fleece and subconsciously rolled closer to Petunia, feeling her static fluffing and expanding his wool and making him feel warmer. The stirring woke Petunia from her sleep. The ampharos yawned and extended her body out on the grass in a morning stretch. It felt good, especially since she couldn't sleep on her stomach anymore. And sleeping on her back made her feel too short of breath. There was only laying on her side, and she had never been able to sleep well on her side. Another night of lousy sleep, but from what Nokotta had said, it wouldn't be too much longer now. Seeing the lamb still asleep, she kept next to him and nibbled the grass near him. ~ Tess watched Chirin and Nokotta on the top of the rocks. Her season was going to be soon...maybe not today, but she didn't know a thing about it. She was aware of heightened desire and had no way to predict what feelings would lead to what. Only that she had never smelled so many rams before and she liked what her nose was telling her. Chirin had saved her...It didn't matter that Pyon was bigger, she was undecided between them. It wasn't as if Pyon was going to give Chirin any chance, but she wanted to know the younger ram...she had liked him very much from the start. It was him who had fought for her, against that first ghost and then against Ebony herself. How could his blood be bad for her lamb? If she was going to sneak it, she would have to plan carefully. Chama twitched slightly, even though the ewe was still close, there wasn't the direct body heat. With a yawn, the lamb woke up to the brightening day, the cool wind biting into his fleece again. He got up, chewing a bit of cud. It was still early. He blinked the sleep-feeling out of his eyes. "Morning Chama!" said Phebes, waving to the lamb from the other side of Petunia's bent-over, grazing figure. "i'm going down theother side of the mountain cause there's good grass there. Or there was last year! Wanna come with me?" She needed to get out a little, check out some new places. The grass was getting kind of thin here and she was really, really hungry. Maybe hungrier than she had ever been before, cause she was eating for two. ~ Chirin bent and scrambled up the rock outcrop to stand on the peak and get a full circle view. Seeing Nokotta huffing and puffing as she struggled to climb up after him, he lent her a flipper. "I was going to get a good look around and speak to the winds, let them guide me to the place where the spell should be done, but they already have. I'm going to do it right here." Facing north. He had been thinking of traveling to that haunted place, but for one he had no desire for any more danger with ghosts, and two, that was the place he wanted to get Sky away from, if Sky had been trapped in the mountain or something. His eyes looked over the stirring flock. Tess and Pyon were awake and grazing side by side. He had been hoping to find her alone before Pyon woke up, but the ram was vigilant and apparently an early riser. He looked straight up at Chirin, his gaze glancing to the side. Chirin did the same and continued to look around, as if not knowing or caring about the ongoing situation between them. "Wherever you need to, whatever you need to, go ahead and do it," said Nokotta. "You see, I would have consulted my mother. But...Mure, those vile beasts, they took her away." Chirin rubbed Nokotta's back with one flipper. "You know that they couldn't take her really away," he said. "why do you think flocks are drawn to the same places, why do some places just feel like home even if you are gone for a lone time? Because the ancestors are ever present. I never do a single spell without speaking to mine. I know that it is not the same, obviously, as when they were alive but I would have no magic at all were it not for them." "Thank you," Nokotta's eyes showed sunray wrinkles as she smiled. "Now get on, i won't take up your time anymore." She gave him a hearty pat. Chirin nuzzled her ear and flashed his lights to her as he bounded down over the other side of the slope. ~ Weedu felt weird. He had beaten Chirin. He'd always sort of known he could do it, he'd just always assumed that it would never come to a battle. He felt alot better now that he had--that tention between them had been broken. But looking up at Chirin he could tell another tension had taken its place. He just hoped it lasted. Chirin had grown an incredible amount in a short period of time...the Mure would have wanted him, all right...if, of course, they hadn't ~wanted~ him. Hiro rolled over onto his side as the noises of the others disturbed him from his rest. Was it time already to wake up? - whoops, looked like it was. Didn't mean he couldn't sleep for a little while longer... But his body wouldn't let him. Wake up, wake up, it said, it's all daylight and stuff now. With a small yawn, Hiro brought himself up to a sitting position, and scratched at his ears - since they itched, of course. Maybe today, he thought, maybe today was going to be the day he'd go looking for other nidorans around here, if nothing else was going to happen. And if nothing got in his way. Just maybe... Cloud yawned and rolled over, blinking. She started for a moment, seeing that she was hemmed in by grey, but then remembered the events of last night. She'd scuttled down to hide among some rocks once the ram fight had started. Thankfully, it was over now; all was peaceful. She crested the stones, and hopped to a patch of grass that hadn't been cropped down too short, since it wasn't the very best of quality. It'd do though, thought the Nidoran doe, and munched contentedly. (stopped at 45398)