His walk out of the cave was not like his walk in. He knew the dark now and it had more of a face on it. It was cruel and evil, but it had allowed Goldie to show him Azalea. The unowns had said that she was the only one who could do it. Why they had let her do this he could only guess, but if he had to swim to the ends of the oceans, he would get Goldie out of there. "Let's go back...back...to..." Selden stopped talking. He didn't know where. "Back to a nice safe sunny place?" "Of course, Selden. I want to be on a sunny place too. But we have to still swim back to shore, and then we have to come clean and light again. I don't know how to do it, but I have to." A form was already taking shape in his head. He longed to draw it upon these rocks, but he knew now that this spire, the lake's face, had the power to twist and corrupt anything that he gave to it, including forms. He would wait until he got ashore. He knew it was a risk to leave the apricorn with Goldie, but she was the one pinprick of light in this place. She needed a part of him to stay with her. Until he came back it was the least he could do. "Phos don't let me lose my light...the vry light you gave me..." he chanted softly as he approached the cave's exit. No one was there. It was pitch dark. The Zubats were gone to hunt and their guano was all they had left here for now. Chirin tried to step around it, using his tail to illuminate the best places to step. He had not realized how stale and old the air was until a fresh midnight breeze whacked his face on his exit. It carried scents of many things--the water, the autumn aspens and the evergreens. And the pokemon within them. It tensed his legs into springing up the last few paces of the path and out into the air. He started to climb the rocks, but saw a faster way then the path he had taken. Going up there would only bring him back amongst the berries and grasses, and however tasty they might be, he did not want to eat them. He felt like evrything here was tainted, and like they too had been marked, Burakuru's lambs rubbing their scent on his skin. To eat of anything here might corrupt him inside too. And the last thing he needed now was to succumb and get sick. He had not one but two missions. "This way, Selden, I'm going to swim us back like we came. I have to check on Karama, I'm worried about her." "I'm scared, Chirin--the water's so cold and my wool was pulling me in." Chirin grinned over his shoulder as he stepped onto a low rock that the lakewaters lapped at. "You're going to ride on me the whole time." Selden's tail brightened. "The whole...time?" "As sure as Watakko is up." He nodded upwards at the stars. The moon, he noted, was gone now. "And when we get ashore, you can sleep some. I know I'm tired too." He sat down on the rock, dangling his feet in, and let Selden get his front legs around his shoulders. Chirin eased himself in, which wasn't easy with a mareep on your back. "Whoa!" Their splash was answered by a couple more distant ones, some Goldeen or Magikarp fry startled by their entry. The lake itself didn't seem evil, he thought...but perhaps below the lake, or deep within it...There was a great wind who blew cold and twisted, and down in that spire he had met it. Chirin swam slowly towards the shore, having a hard time seeing where it actually was. There was a current, and he let it drift him along a bit southward. He perked his tail up as he kicked, trying to find the shoreline. Calming himself with the rhythms of his paddling, the gentle splashing he made and his deep breathing, he lit the shoreline in blue-tinted white light. His light had grown a lot; evolution had granted it greater reach. Something small scampered into the bushes and out of the light; pausing to listen, he heard the rustling. Soon after, his feet brushed the bottom. He lt Selden off his back and plodded ashore heavy and slow. "Karama?" he called, and he heard how cracky and tired his voice was. When he didn't hear her answer he started hiking his way through the dark woods, fumbling through foliage even with his light curled round in front. It illuminated the globes of frost that he breathed out in the cold night. "Selden, where did you last see her?" Selden sniffled absently, from the cold, and took a moment to answer. If she had gone far they could not follow her tonight. "She went away in the woods. I was watching for you. I got scared." He sighed. "I know I'm not big and brave like you. And when Karama left I got too scared to stay." "It's okay." Chirin reached down and petted him, and he noticed Selden's tail alighting in a richer glow. Chirin definitely smelled her when they reached the stretch of beach where he had swum off from. By night, the beach was a different beast. Where it ended blended with shore and forest, the distinctions blurred by shadow, even when he cast his light the borders seemed unsure. Shining it over the water's edge he caught glimpses of swaying sea plants and maybe a small fish or two that darted away, as if the light would harm them. By scent, he even found the bushes Karama had walked off among. He thought of sleeping here and now, but sensed that the beach was touched by Burakuru. He could not stay here if he was to shed the spirit-scent of the spire. Pushing through bushes up onto a trail, he shone around for a sign of the mareep, dead or alive. "Karama..." Selden just followed on, waiting for what happened next. As long as he was with Chirin, things would be okay. Chirin had gotten him out of the mountain cave place. He had saved him from drowning. There was nothing the great big brave flaaffy couldn't do. He licked his own apricorn shell, just like Chirin always did (when he happened to have one) and walked on, listening to Chirin's calling. "I think she's gone," said Chirin. "Oh I hope she's okay. She's just a little lamb out there all alone." He sighed, looking down at the trail floor. He wanted out of this forest, out into open air. Forest harbored that many more dangerous beings. They were like caves in their own way. Breaking back out of the woods was as easy as turning to his left and trotting down the beach, but Chirin did not want to look at the lake. It looked back at him too strong. Even now he felt it watching him right through the trees. No forest felt thick enough to veil him and Selden from its eye. "Where are we going to go?" said Selden. "What are we going to do?" "I'm going to find help," said Chirin, still walking. "I'm getting Goldie off that island." "But--you said you were going to bring back a friend to her." Selden was confused. "I know. But that would be bringing a free pokemon into a--a blocked- off life, away from the light-path. Even digletts and sandshrews see the light, they tunnel where they like. There, they would have to live in that dismal place, draped in darkness. It would be no better. How can I do that if I can't bring myself or you to stay there. I could never do it." "So did you...you..." Selden couldn't say it. "Yes. I hated to do it, but I had to lie." Something or someone whacked him on the head. But though the stars sprang into his vision and the ground tilted up at him, nothing pushed him. Only an excruciating pain slicing in, not unlike the thin little thorn that the spirit possessing Gonga had tried to drive into him. In reflex Chirin's electricity popped off, driving a bolt into the trees with a bang and a shudder. *You will not defy us The wheel has turned You have asked and the seer has granted The bond is made.* "What...I..." Chirin buried his head in his arms. Selden bleated fearfully, standing in front of him on the path. "But I'm not...I'm..." It couldn't be them. It must have been his imagination. They could not be here still, in his body and mind. Chirin crouched down in fear, flicking his tail back and forth behind him. His own huge beastly shadow swayed hypnotically over the spruce trees. It towered over him in the night. "Unowns...you...are you...You can't..." *The bond is made You must not speak of us You must not pray ill of us You must carry out what you promised For Goldie's good.* "It's not...But it's not the way," he said. He took a breath. "Unowns...I never...There must be some way. Once I get help..." *You must not speak of us.* The pain pricked him again, less intense than before. A warning. A warning that they would use his own body to hurt him. They were wrapping his thoughts and striking down the ones they did not want. His mind had always been a sacred cavern, a grotto where the spirits spoke to him from outside, and he let their messages flow in. It had been broken into. Chirin had to run. "Selden...we have to get out of here. Away...Away..." "What? Chirin...I didn't hear you..." Chirin tried to make his words come out intelligibly, less rippled by his fear-shakes. His teeth chattered and sparks flew. "Now!" He took off west, away into the forest with Selden keeping up on his four legs. Roots and sharp twigs scratched at the soles of his feet. He did not feel the pain. ooc: Whoops i meant "east" not west. Why do I keep doing that?? IC: "Where are we going?" Selden ran after the blue beacon of Chirin's tail, dodging low branches and leaping over roots. "I have to go away," said Chirin. "Before I can do anything I have to get both of us away from them." Chirin did not want to tell Selden what had happened--that he had been possessed. It would scare the poor little lamb too much. And fear...the monster preyed on fear... Where was Chirin running to? He was trying to escape by running from something that had lodged itself inside of him now. The unown had said that their powers did not extend very far beyond the lake. He had to get away, and get help from beyond the lake...But who would help, who would listen to him? No matter. He could not exist with evil spirits living in his body. He fell down and rolled in the dirt, kicking at a tree trunk he bumped into. He didn't know why, he was not thinking anymore. He was only feeling, and he felt them all over his skin. "Chirin!" Selden cried. "Oh, Chirin! What's happened?" Chirin lay still, catching his burning breath, suddenly prickled by tons of scratches all over him, on his feet and body where bebris had scratched him. He lay there on his side crying. "The unowns," he panted, "they possessed me..." Again they flung the stone at him from inside his head. He clutched his skull and screamed in agony. "This is me! This is me! You! You can't! GET OUT OF ME!" *We are not inside you We merely warn you Do not speak of us.* Chirin picked himself up and started running again. He would run till his feet wore down to his ankle bones if he had to, to come clean. How he had taken the freedom of his mind for granted. He had pranced about all over the place with no caution, paying the darkness no heed. That purple light. That had been the spirit entering him. "It was the purple light--" Pain pushed him to the ground and his nose bluntly struck it. Getting back up he continued to run, more slowly now. He was not as light as he had been as a mareep, and his legs were two fewer and more stubbly- -though by flaaffy standards he was rathher skinny. "You're bleeding," said Selden. "Your nose..." Chirin wiped it on his woolly chest, smearing a little red smudge. "I'm okay, it'll stop. Come on." He worried for Selden; was he, too, possessed? He tried to remember whether the light had fallen on him too. He tried not to think of the unown. He thought of anything else, of Azalea, of his flock, of luscious delicious clover. But even all of that was now about the unowns, because he deliberately thought of those things to leave the unowns out. His songs, his dances, his forms, his prayers. All of it tainted, all of it black. Until he found a way to come clean he could continue no mission. To seek the light one had to have light in themself and now he felt that he was full of darkness. But it wasn't his fault. The spirit had got him. He was not evil, but he harbored evil. He could be a danger to anyone he met because the spirit could send out part of itself to possess them. Every time he opened his mouth, he could be letting it out. He slowed to a walk, trying to remember the first step to exorcising an evil spirit from oneself. To do this, one had to communicate with the spirit, learn where it was and what its weakness was, and herd it out of your own body, not necessarily harming it, just shooing it out. All the while staying aware that because it was within you, your own soul hd less room. Any day now he could sicken and die if it got worse. But had he come this far, only to be stopped by this evil lake spirit? "Selden, I know we can do this," he said to the frightened lamb trotting next to him. "I'm scared too Selden. But I'm going to do everything my flock taught me and everything else I've learned. I'm going to get this evil spirit far away and out of my body." It was very, very hard to force out an evil spirit during the night, unless a whole flock was there to shine enough light. He realized that until tomorrow morning he would have little chance. By then, maybe it would have faded away. He kept on walking away from the lake, trying to remove himself from the powers of the spire. But he still thought about it and felt it all through him. The aftershocks of the still throbbed in his head. "In the morning, tomorrow is when I'll begin. Maybe we should find a place to sleep till then." Up ahead, fresh scents dancing in free air over grass, came to him, with the strong scent of wheat. He found himself standing at the edge of a wheatfield, gone golden, but showing up purplish blue in his light. The stalks nodded higher than the top of his head. He nibbled on one of the ripe seedheads. Never before had he seen a field like this, which seemed to be all one plant, except for some smaller plants interspersed beneath the wheat, and some daisies on the edge of the field. Then, as he walked alongside it, his tail shed light onto the formation of the field--all the plants were growing in straight rows. Dead straight parallel lines daggered down the field. It was not natural. "This is a place that humans used their magic on," said Chirin, edging back out of it. He stopped to eat a little more anyway. "We'll stay at the edge." He remembered that they came at night, and dimmed his tail so they wouldn't see. Then he remembered that they had taken his flock in the middle of the night, when everyone's lights had been dimmed in sleep, and he brightened it again. The dark spirits were so confusing and so hard to understand. It was said that creatures of light could never really understand the dark. The grain was delicious--dry stalks and all. Chirin nipped off several seedheads and dropped them down to Selden. Had it been any other night, Chirin would have lost himself in the joy of eating, the wonderful taste exploding in his mouth as he crunched down on the seed pods. But tonight it all felt tainted. He thought of the unowns again. "I wonder how far we have to go to get away from the unowns," he said, more of a test than anything. The pain swept over his head in a wave, before he could brace himself. "Let's go," he said, not wanting to stay in a human place now that they were full. He headed southward now, near the forest's edge. Now he was looking for a place to sleep. He usually sought a place that felt free of enemies and let him look around him for a while, to spot anything coming. Here the forest touched human farmland, and there would be no safe haven. How he missed home. Pharos was a distant peak inhis memory now, and horribly mixed in with the memory of the spire. With a start that illuminated the wheat to his left and trees to his right, he realized that he could not distinguish them in his mind's eye. He could no longer picture Pharos' outline without seeing the spire. Was it just fading memory, or... "How could you," he whispered, tears rolling down his face. "Oh, Pharos, I miss you." As he picked his way down between forest and field, going slowly from exhaustion rather than choice, he felt a deep sense of having fallen from the beacon peak, long and hard. It was a miracle they had not been attacked, he thought as he stood by a place in the grass beyond the field, thinking of sleeping here. An ampharos alone was safe from attack by most predators. A flaaffy was not, although it was better than being a little lamb alone. As long as there was nothing big around, he would be okay for the night. But many ringuma were known to nose around at night and this, along with early spring, was the worst time to find one. He lay down in the spot, right at the edge of the forest. Why did he fear ringuma? They had escaped one, but they had not escaped the lake. It had pressed itself inside him. Chirin turned in a circle and shone his light over the place where they would sleep. Why now was a song coming to him? Cracking and beyond exhaustion, yet called to sing, he stood looked out at the field, listening, and his voice came out a tired whisper. "Phos is away I hear a hoot down the wheat-field But darkness has come, and tied up my mouth. Wheat strands sway like my wool in the wind. But darkness has come, and burned in my brain. I hear a song, I think a song, And for the first time cannot sing. The darkness stabs my thoughts. Phos lies away beneath Mother Megga. Wheat-stems march in rows The starlight of ancestors shines on me. So far I came, so far I fell I look up at them pleading Pleading they are hearing, reading what the dark has done to me The circling shapes unseen by eyes Now I see them everywhere. Once I sought them, now I flee them You showed me my mama's face But I have met your shadows now, unowns-- The darkness..." NO! He fought through the pain, bracing his feet and clasping his ducked head. He breathed into his wool. It was the last line of the song...NO! *The darkness chokes my voice...* "The darkness chokes my voice!" He stood there in a squat, slowly straightening his legs again. He could not speak of them or sing of them. Like a poison released into a body of water it reached all parts of it. He was poisoned, like the lake was poisoned. "Chirin!" Selden shivered against him. "What happened? Are you hurt?" "Yes...But I'll be okay till the morning. When morning comes...we will continue on and I'm going to get this evil out of me." Yes, tomorrow was what he had to wait for. Then he could shine out the shadow from himself and get help for Goldie. Chirin wiped his face dry again, amazed he had any tears left to cry. He lay down and with a sideways nod of his head, motioned Selden to sleep here too. Selden snuggled up against Chirin's stomach and the two of them closed their eyes. Chirin dreamed. The river fled the stalking lake, trying to cry out. Chirin stood at its bank and the waters rose up. A black wall of water came down on him. Where was Selden? He would drown. Chirin paddled on and on and found himself on the island. And the unowns chorused in a droning chant. *You must not hear You must not speak We are the ones that the forest fears.* "Goldie!" Chirin ran through the dark caverns, never having enough light to reveal what was ahead of him. "Goldie where are you! I came to get you!" The room shuddered as he saw Goldie running to him. He grabbed her up. "I told you I'd come back. I'm going to take you far away to a place where you can be free and happy..." And as he clutched her tight against him, feeling her heart, the unowns chanted with their hexing voices. *Sometimes a light will shine past its borders Sometimes a river will flow past its banks Hear what you must hear, see what you must see But never will you venture To what cannot be.* "You don't understand!" he screamed. "You can't trap a baby in the dark! She'll die!" Selden had already run a way up the tunnel and he bleated for Chirin to follow. His sparks played against the folds of rock wall. With his arms around Goldie Chirin took off and ran. Run, dart, dodge the leaping stone. As if the rock had stood up to stretch, the cave floor jumped up under him, knocking Goldie neatly out of his arms and rolling her harmlessly away. Chirin landed on his back. *No,* he thought as he kicked and squirmed, trying to find the floor, *it's them...they're taking her away.* "Goldie!" The Ruriri rolled out of his tail's swinging light, tucked in shadows as another reverberation slammed him against the wall. His head smarted with stars. Or was it him rolling away from her? The cave's uniform dark color, only changed by his tail, tumbled him over and over, trying to grind him to bits. But worse than this pain was the pain in his head. *The wheel has turned The deal is made Too much you have learned It must be repaid.* Chirin was running in the grass back on Pharos. "The unowns are coming! The unowns are coming! Help!" He stopped, trying to tell whether the pain was coming or would come. Not yet, but would it soon? He ran on... A purple light surrounded him and glowed against his skin as he ran up Pharos' peak. "Pharos! Chenja! MAMMA!" He climbed up to the top, trying to brush the light off his skin. "Please...oh leave me alone..." There was nothing else he could do. He looked far down at the churning sea. Only one way to shed this light-of-dark. But would he survive it? He took a breath and jumped. He hit the water rear end first but as he kicked his way up and spluttered to the surface he found that it was not salt water. It was lakewater. He looked up and saw not the great bluffs of Pharos but the island and the spire. He began to swim away and found that his limbs would not move. His lungs would take in no air, he had nothing to scream with. He began to sink. And as the water filtered around his ears he heard the voices in his head, chanting deep with the water's fluid song. *Fly in the sky or swim in the sea You cannot escape A promise.* Chirin tried to scream but could not exhale. He gave a pull with his locked-up lungs but breathed in water. Or was it a thin pallor of air? *...uh....uh...* He was a silent stone dropping to the bottom of the lake, following the path of his pebble and the grave he had given the ram of Denrai. "Chirin," Selden's little bubble voice cried from somewhere above him. "Chirin...what's wrong?" But Chirin saw no one's light. *uh...uh...* he tried to scream and only sucked tiny scratches of bleats from pulls of air. "Chirin, please, you're scaring me!" He fought his paralysis, trying to lift limbs heavy as logs. Instantly, as the dream dissolved plucking back in his body, he realized it had all taken place in the other realm... "Oh, Chirin," Selden hugged the flaaffy. "You're okay?" "Yes," said Chirin, hugging Selden back. "You were making these scary little noises. I, got scared." "They tried to drown me," said Chirin, realizing that Selden might have just saved his life. "You pulled me back somehow before they could do it. Oh.." He hugged Selden tight, laying there with him under the trees, in the fading night. Their lights no longer seemed as bright. Selden, caught in Chirin's crying embrace, felt his fear climb a notch. But something else also climbed, striding up his veins, something good and scary at the same time. * * * Ivy climbed on the rocks where Chirin climbed. He had been working his way through the woods beyond the wheatfield's end, and now he clambered over this outcropping, zigzagging, jumping, leaping and dancing denryuu circles around it. While Selden, ears flickering in puzzlement, sat atop the highest of the boulders and watched his friend. Chirin was scanning it over for a spot nude of ivy, flat and smooth, where a form could be born. He found just the place. "Now for colors," he said, shining his light around the place, sanctifying it. "Come on, let's find the things we need." If this took a while, so be it. It must be the best form he could possibly make. As he thought some more on it, munching some leaves off a bush he picked berries from, he thought of some tricks to try with this one, possibly dangerous ones. But he was already threatened. Each breath could behis last. Yes, he could live a very full life, but it would never be one where he could relax. No matter how high up a mountain face he climbed, no matter how big a thunder he struck, he would never escape an enemy that could not be seen, smelled or even felt until it was too late. An enemy that had already found and secured him and was only toying with him now like a Persian with its prey. Chenja and Lararu had never done this, or he could not remember, if they had. But he thought it just might work. He imagined the form, and recalled the unowns of the lake. They were close to the dark stone of the spire. And this rock here was also dark, and it felt very much like the rocks of the island had. Before he did the form, though, he must acquire certain powers. Something that would weaken the spirit he wanted to expel from him...he regretted that he could not simply reason and negotiate with it, and took solace in the fact that he would not have to truly hurt it, only dampen its powers just enough to shake it loose. Perhaps even just lull it gently to sleep. But what would work against the spire and the lake? Rock and water made this being, and something else with a living essence deeper and older than anything he had ever known. He could think of no pokemon with an edge on this power. It stood above and below the plane that the animals lived on. A small object the color of heather blooms lay on the freshly fallen yellow-brown pine needles. He bent, sniffed at, then picked up a sneasel's feather. It had been shed by a young nyuura, maybe an older kitten, very recently. Smelling around a little he caught the sneasel's fresh scent against the nearby pine trunk and on the needle carpet. They traveled alone and by cover of night. He turned it in his hands and ran it along that sensitive spot under his nose and above his mouth, enjoying its smooth softness. Dark to speak to dark... Sneasels did not survive by might and fight. They sneaked and slinked and tricked their way along their light-path. Mother Megga had given them good minds. Perhaps he would need the sneasel's cunnng to unhook this cloying thing's claws off the inside of him. For even now its power could be absorbed by him. He dabbed some sap from a pine cone onto the feather's shaft tip and stuck it behind his ear. He checked it to make sure it was on there good. Now to embellish this, and endow himself even more with Sneasel talents. He was beginning to feel cleverer already--its power releasing into him and well under his own control. With Selden's help he accrused several more paints: black from a brushfire's ash, mud, grass, blue and purple and red berries. Cud spit out made dark green, and an interesting texture too. Chirin brought it all over to the rock where he would be working. "Thanks Selden," he said, taking berries of a lighter red from a bush Selden had found. He crept almost silently as he shuttled the supplies. His ears flicked and his tail sinuated. Pine needles, applied with sap to either side of his nose, bristled like whiskers. "Are they straight?" he asked Selden, who smiled and shook his head. "They're almost straight." Looking out the sides of his eyes and blessed by wide vision, Chirin nudged the needles into place. "That's good," said Selden. Chrin brushed aside the wool on his head. Feeling where the center of his forehead was, he painted on a pink-purple jewel. When the juice ran, he wiped it off, knocking his whiskers askew. Singing to himself of clever sheep stalking in the clouds overhead, he redid the jewel and whiskers to his satisfaction and completed it by trying to dab another jewel on his chest. It ran and stained his wool. But it was, he decided, closer to a Sneasel that way. "You look more and more like a Sneasel," said Selden, although he could barely recall what they looked like. There had been one or two kept on the farm along with the Meowths. All the farm was a hazy memory for him now. "Thanks," said Chirin. He felt like one and was taking on the essence of the one who had shed that feather. Clever Chirin-chirin thought of something else. He gathred more ash and, patch by patch, reaching with difficulty in some places, he became black. Or at least a smoky sooty uneven gray color. He finally just rolled in the ash to get his back. Selden joined him. "I'm a sneasel too!" he said. Chirin painted his tail pink, although it turned out purplish and still had black stripes. Selden looked at him askance. "Wow, you really are turning into a sneasel." "I am one. I have the quiet and the stealth and intelligence of Nyuura. I--I can move without a sound." The sooty mokoko took a careful step, barely crunching the leaves. He flicked the end of his tail, which was still stiffer than a nyuura's would be, but oh well, he still had yet to truly transform. "I'll need these powers soon." Chirin took up the small drawing rock he had selected and began the form with one strong bolt of a line. This rock was harder to get a white line with, but he had found a good sharp rock. "Nyuura, nyuu," he purred. He drew a sneasel with a light on one of its tail feathers. That was him. Chirin circled the rock like the sneasel he now was, and sang in a low hiss and purr of a voice. "Nyuu, nyuu I am a shadow under a rock Rrraahhh... I am a gentle flicker of lights at night. Nyah, nyah, I creep up dark like ripples Nyy--urr--uhhh Come into my paws. "Nyah!" Chirin landed with an artful pounce upon the place where he had begun the form. Now for the rest of it. He weighed the risk in his head and decided it was worth it. He drew the unowns and the lake and the spire, waiting for the pain and the voices. They did not come this time. At this point he thought of giving this up, if they really had fled from his Sneasel form already, but like sneasels themselves they were sneaky and very patient. He completed the form by showing the unowns leaving him, out from his mouth and his outstretched paws. They left him and drifted up and as they left they acquired the dancing glory of colors that they had taken on so long ago on that special night. "I think I found the plant you were looking for before," said Selden, smiling. Chirin put the finishing touches on the great big drawing and laid down his tools. "Wonderful! Where?" He followed the lamb's proudly held tail to a healthy patch of pokenip. Recent near-frosts and waning days had only just begun to yellow the lower leaves. "You did," said Chirin, gently picking several leaves and carrying them all back to the rock with the form. He sat down with his back to the form now and closed his eyes, giving the air a last sniff and finding all was safe. "Selden," he said, "now here comes your important job. I will be away on a journey to the spirit world to talk to the unown--" He clenched his molars together as the pain took him by surprise. "I will talk to them and try to get them to leave me. But while I'm gone I need you to guard my body. If an enemy comes, you have to try to wake me up. I think we're safe here, but just in case. Do you think you can do that?" "Yes," said Selden. His tail light beamed brightly, but betrayed a nervous flicker. "All I have to do is wake you up?" "Yes," said Chirin. "But only if it's a real danger coming. And try to be gentle when you wake me up." "Like..." Selden pondered. "Like I woke you up from the bad dream?" "Yes, oh, yes, exactly like that," said Chirin, feeling genuinely safe with Selden now that he remembered him helping him out of such a dire dream-trip. Chirin settled himself down again, taking deep breaths. With the stone warming up against his straightened back, he relaxed himself. Thinking sneasel thoughts he took one leaf and ate it, then another, then another, always eating one more leaf after he told himself that it was enough. Maybe he shouldn't have picked so many...Maybe he should have stopped eating them before there was nothing left in front of him... Only now, as he began to feel his soul lifting out of him, did he remember what the flock had said, that eating too much whisked you too far into a world wilder than this one. He let his soul bleed out of his body, and he was not aware of when he toppled over. The ground his body lay on no longer had a grip on him. Gone was the hard stone at his back, the ground under his butt and legs, the air on his face and the slightly bitter aftertaste of the leaves. He was tumbling through the tunnel into somewhere else, a jumpluff in an updraft. Unlike the last time when he had blundered into this place, he didn't need to travel anywhere. The dark was not just around him, but in him. And the unowns appeared. Transient and amorphous like clouds, so much more alive--dazzling and blooming with splendour, a garden in the air. They billowed like smoke and drifted like autumn leaves. "Unowns," he said, then remembered he was a sneasel. What did he do while he was here? How did he get them out of him? And why did he get this sudden feeling like something was very wrong? The unowns flitted around him till they were all that existed, just them in a dark place. He had eaten too much. The magic was too strong. The dancing forest shrank away from him, shunting him elsewhere, spurning him. Like someone had grabbed him and shoved him into a cave, light and color all sucked away from him. "Chirin," said Selden, although there were no enemies. The mokoko had tumbled sideways and now lay there, not moving. "Chirin." Chirin was in nothing. He saw no light, not even his own tail. Where was he? Was he anywhere? He waved his legs and arms and tail but felt no air resistance. He was movement and thought and that was all that existed here. He was not sure if he was falling...his stomach felt unsettled, although he could call up no cud; but no wind blew. He took a breath but did not feel the cool whoosh of air pouring in. Trying to feel his way back to his body, he found no connection. Was this being dead? Was it the place you went to just before you died? Was this where his soul would slowly suffocate, like Goldie in the island caves? He was no sneaky sneasel. This was not normal for a sneasel. Or was it? How did he know what kinds of dream-places sneasels could go? Whatever it was, he sensed it was dangerous. Wherever it was was too far from his body. But the body waiting for him was already inhabited. He could not step back into a desecrated home. If this was all that his journey had taken him to, it might mean he had no hope of shaking the spirits out of him. He would eat, sleep, mate, and die all under an unown's shadow. It was no light-path. Better to let himself sink down now. They channeled his thinking now but they could not force him to come back into his body--into their hands. And Selden? Once Chirin died they would lose their hold on him. Selden would be free. If an enemy killed him, better even that, than to walk knowing the path could never be pure. That you were always being watched and invaded. He felt his mind pad into that place where it would have triggered tears if he had still been in his body. He would miss the fragrance of flowers and the feel of rolling in grass. But it would have all been a ruse. He would have had to pretend he was free to sprawl wherever his heart and light took him. And he could not fool himself. *Oh, to not have made so many mistakes so soon.* But Azalea...to see Azalea again. What was he thinking? To give up on life? Just because he had a spirit trying to shoulder him aside and take his light-path from under his feet? Who was he to give up so fast? Swimming against a current of cold he fought back towards his body. But he found it cold and forbidding. No. *No!* The more he strained towards it, the colder and harder his body was, the veins were winter tide pools and the light in his tail was a Lanturn beached. *** "Chirin!" At the sight of his dear friend's tail light barely flickering, Selden shook him. The pidgeys singing high above him in the treetops seemed to mock the two of them here. And Selden was alone again. He looked at the fresh, soot-smeared face, so handsome and even pale, lying there on the brown dirt and yellow autunm leaves with the colors of the drawing he had made stretching a playful rainbow up behind him. *** It was too late. Like vision doubling he shrank back from his body, the only one he would ever get and that he had carelessly thrown away in angst. Mah-mah's own body had made it. She had birthed him onto green grass on a warm sunny day and licked him clean. How could he have done this? How? Out of the black and cold sang a voice, distant but coming nearer. *Chirin.* *Mure?* A dark tumble of marowak and cave and blue water--no, ice--no, stone-- flashed like the unowns had flashed. Here and there he glimpsed bone-- red eyes peering from skulls. *You are far away from me. I can't help you for long...* *Mure...help me...The unowns...* *I know. And you can't despair. You can't die. And you will be free. You have the power to free yourself of anything that dares to touch inside of you and shake your freedom. You did it once, a long time ago.* *Mure, I'm dead already.* *No, you are not. Use your gift!* *I did, I tried to sneak them out like a Sneasel!* *No. Your real gift.* He felt a warm wind, twinkling with a drapery of faint sparks, take a gentle hold of his limbs and push them towards his empty body. *You must help me here. Your body is an apricorn. Enter it.* Two pinpoints of light, they might have been stars, oosed out like sap from a distance where the sky might have been, had he not been stuck in the dark. Distance ws all he could judge by. There was no up, no down here, only all around, like a sea. And those two sparking trickles of light, might have been tears. His gift. That thing he had done with his *denki* was a gift? It certainly wasn't any good in fighting! But as he began to concentrate, he realized she was right. Little by little he sent his denki out ahead of him, focusing into his body. *That's it...now you must pull yourself in. You can do it.* His body was aching, cold and stiff. But it was all he had. Slowly he flexed into it, feeling gravity and a sense of the world again. He was leaving. *The unowns, they hurt me if I try to tell about them. Mure, I can't get rid of them with my gift or any gift!* *Yes, you can. The unown simply want to hide. And Goldie will be free one day. You may not be able to expel the unowns now, but hone your gift, Chirin. And you will.* Just as he reached his body again, fitting into his skin like a caterpie in a metapod shell, the spark-dust reached out towards him. A soft tingling wind brushed his cheek as Mure began to fade away. With her all the other sensations--Marowak, cavern, floor and glowing blue stone, all were dragged away from him. *Mure, how do I get Goldie free!* *You cannot now. Until you hone your gift you can do nothing but bring her the friend she so needs.* *Who are you?!* *I am Mure, I am helpless, and I was your mah-mah, a long, long time ago. Sleep well, Chirin-chirin.* Chirin's eyes were trapped behind closed lids and his limbs twitched, feeling ground. He sighed into normal sleep. He was dimly aware of the passage of time, brought to him through smells and winds that only came at certain hours. In between more usual spirit journeys, he would try to break the shell of sleep and see where and when he was, if only so that he could see if Selden was all right. Now and then when he bobbed closer to the surface, he sensed someone brushing him or licking his face, and smelled Selden. In between dreams and awareness, thoughts came to him. *I was your mah-mah a long time ago.* Then she was an ancient ancestor. His ancestors had not left him like he had thought so many times. But why her? Why not his real mama? It was all too hard to think about right now. He let the cool river of dreaming pull him away into sunny lands where he ran and tumbled in summer grass with Azalea. But just for that brief time when Mure had helped him to save his life, he had felt like Mama was back. He had had a mother again. His life had become desolate now, from what it had been. A wintertime of life. Suddenly cooler wind shook him more fully awake, and he had not realized it had grown warmer, till it had grown cooler again. His pounding headache protested when he tried to open his eyes. It was not the unowns this time, but the trauma of too much pokénip. The icky yucky taste in his mouth, coupled with stiffness and sore spots where he lay on the forest floor, told him he had slept a long time. "Selden?" An icky cracky voice, too. But he would recover all right. He was lucky to be alive. *Thank you, Mure, thank you to all my ancestors. I owe you much.* He heard the quick running of hooves through the forest litter towards him. "Chirin? Chirin! You're awake?" Selden's face was hard to focus on. Around him it was pitch dark, the deep of night. But what night, of what day? Did it matter now? "Oh," Selden leaned his face close to Chirin's nose. "You were asleep for a very, very, very, very, very, very..." Chirin cracked a weak smile. "It's okay now, I'm okay." The very effort of speaking sighed a wave of sleep back over him. But it was brief this time. So much had his soul gone through that it needed all this time in the other world. When he woke up again, he lifted his head and saw that a few alder leaves had fallen on him while he had slept. The trees had tried to make a bed for him... this was a blessed place of healing. "I was so scared that you were going to die," said Selden while Chirin forced himself to sit up, if only for a little while. If he was better he shouldn't lay about for long. "But, you didn't." "No, I didn't." He found it hard to focus on conversation right now, he was just grateful to be alive and back and in this world again. "I went on a long and dangerous trip that I probably shouldn't have made, and my ancestor helped me. She spoke to me, and said that someday I will be free of the unowns." At that he experienced the sharp pain, but the disapointment that he had not overcome it yet as he had hoped, hit him sharper. "She said I have to...hone my gift." He concentrated on not getting dizzy as he chewed cud. It tasted soft, like it had been down there a long time. "I didn't know I had a gift. It's a little one, but..." He trailed off, not sure if he wanted to tell Selden all abut it yet. Selden didn't seem curious to hear more. He was just so happy, beaming at Chirin as he sat there, still coated in ash and dirt, chewing cud. He looked around him more curiously now, rousing a little more. He brightened his light and saw a ring of leaves around him. Selden must have pushed them there. "I made a bed for you," said Selden, seeing Chirin looking. "I tried to draw more forms on the other rocks around you but I couldn't hold the rock and the berries just got squooshed." "Oh, Selden, that's okay." Chirin opened his arms and Selden ran up to get the hug. "You did a great job guarding me." He heard the rumble of Selden's stomach, mirroring his own. He was very hungry. "Can--can I stop guarding you now? It's just that I'm, a little bit hungry." Chirin's ears drooped and his light flashed behind him. "You mean...you didn't eat?" "Well...of course I ate," said Selden, gesturing to the few tendrils of ivy hanging down on this part of the rock, which had been cropped short. He trotted over to the couple of alder sapling branches hanging nearby, which had been nibbled bare as far as Selden could reach--only a few mouthfuls of leaves. The sapling's trunk had been stripped of its bark. No other trees grew right in Chirin's vicinity. To eat anything else he would have had to leave Chirin's side for a moment. "Oh, Selden. You--When I asked you to guard me, I didn't mean you had to stay right next to me! You must be so hungry!" He tried to stand, and found he had to do it in stages. His head pounded. At last he had to sit back down. "Selden, go over there to that bush," he shone his light on them, "or just around to the other side of the rock, with the ivy! You must eat, friend." He stroked Selden's back and nudged him over towards the greens. Selden wasn't gone long, due to his fear of the dark and being alone. When he came back he was carrying a trail of ivy. "For you." He dragged it into Chirin's lap. "Thanks." Chirin ruffled Selden's hair and dug into his much-needed meal. "I don't know what I'd do without you," he said to the lamb, igniting a richer yellow orange on his little tail's end. After he had finished the ivy, he chewed some more cud and thought of what gift he would leave for Mure and his other ancestors right on this spot by the rock where he sat now. He felt them in the very stone and dirt, warming him and sending him strength. Later on, Chirin was finally able to rise up on his feet. It was a good thing too, because he had to do his business. After leaving droppings just round the other side of the rock, he led Selden out to the forest's edge, where they enjoyed a nighttime graze. The moon hung high, little more than half. He would be free. And so would Goldie. And he would find Azalea. It would just be much harder than he had thought it would be. Watakko above, if it had been as easy as running to get help from the nearest pokemon, Goldie would still not be locked away in there! And maybe, if he brought Goldie a friend, she would have rested up and be able to show him Azalea again. Still unable to move very far or rise to his feet without getting dizzy, he grazed along slowly, savoring the grass's taste and texture, a pleasure he had almost given up forever. Mure had told him to go back and find a friend for Goldie, for now. He figured that it was all he could do. The poor ruriri must feel betrayed by him, because he had kept on telling her he would never leave her, and it had turned out to be a lie. While he piddled around out here trying to fight a force he could not even flicker against, she sat down in the depths of darkness with only those...things...for companionship. If that was companionship he'd rather be alone. He took an especially large bite of grass and chewed furiously, trying to calm himself down. He couldn't let himself get all angry again over it. It would do Goldie no good. "Where are we going to next?" said Selden, grazing with his head across from Chirin's. They almost bumped heads and Chirin-chirin giggled. "I don't know. I guess to the lake." He felt a little shaky, but as long as the moon shone, why not begin to work their way back lakewards a little bit before they slept? A slow pace would suit them both. Chirin couldn't go very fast, and Selden had to graze. "Yes, the lake's where I'm going. I need to find a friend for Goldie." "But...you said...but..." Chirin nudged against him. You won't have to go back to the island at all. I might, but...I won't go in nearly so deep as I went on that horrible, dark last trip." He shivered a little, and his head pulsed. "May the spirits find me safely through. I may not have to go in at all." "But, if you go in you could die!" "I won't die," said Chirin. "I promise." "And I won't?" "No, you'll be safest of all." But it didn't matter, thought Selden, if Chirin was not safe too. "If possible," said Chirin, allowing himself to walk along the woods' edge with Selden eagerly keeping by his side, "I won't swim to the island at all. I just...feel so dark and terrible. I will be condemning some innocent being to dwell and languish...down there in the spire." He ducked his head and gave it a shake to dislodge tears. "If only there were a way, to send someone in there who could bring her out. And what if the friend also gets possessed? I will have become one of the *burakos*, spreading darkness." He realized that Selden might not even understand what he was saying. "I'm sorry to be--possibly scaring you like this. I'm just afraid." "I'll help you," said Selden, not knowing what else to say, and they walked on. Chirin had still found nothing to place by the rock--he realized he had forgotten to leave a gift for his family spirits. "Uh...I'm sorry to just--slap our trip short like this, but I have to go back and leave an offering by the form." "That's fine," said Selden, turning right around. Chirin searched around and picked some of the best grass he could find. He carried it back to the rock amid the rustles of the night, fighting dizziness all the way; his soul's connection to his body was still very fragile. He added a few berries to the little altar, and spread them all out over the fresh-fallen broad leaves. "Come morning, it will be beautiful. My ancestors, take my little gift and dance in the energy that may flower in you." On his knees, he bowed his nose to the ground, brushing against the edge of the leaves. He had no apricorn now, nothing left to give, and yet he felt that in making these forms and going as Nyuura into the other world, he had helped to reunite himself with the spirits who had first shaped him into what he was. If Mure was right and he did have a special gift, his ancestors had given him that, too. One more thing tying him to those who were dead, but never, never gone. "Maybe we should sleep here," he said to Selden with his eyes glistening rivers down his face. "The spirits sway me, they are welling up in me. They hug me, they want me to give them light for tonight." "Of course we can stay," he said, joining Chirin by the rock. Beside the offering, Chirin lay down to give himself over to the sleep that had been calling to him. It was dark and they were alone out here, and the unowns still stood sentinel in his head. But it had been a long time since he had felt so safe and loved. He closed his eyes...melting into relaxation, his spirit spreading its nightly wings... "Who's Burakuru?" "Oh..." Chirin yawned and opened his eyes again. "Burakuru is the dark ewe...She won't get us out here, you're safe here with me." He licked the lamb's snout. "I can't sleep. Can you tell me a story?" "Oh, Selden..." He was so tired. "I'll tell you a very short story, before this heavy weight in me just, makes my eyes drop closed. Would a small story be all right?" "Yes," said Selden. "Tell me about Burakuru." "Oh, lights above and lights beyond, I don't want to scare you." "You won't. I'm brave with you." "You're brave anywhere, dear Selden. You were my light while I swam in pokenip." He sighed. "All right, I will tell you a story of Burakuru. Maybe the chills will shock my *denki* awake again." He gave Selden a squeeze as they lay there, churning up all he remembered about Burakuru. Which, owing to his many nights in forests, was plenty. "Deep in the hadow woods there lives a dark Ampharos. Instead of light, she shines darkness. She is all black with gold rings where a denryuu's black stripes are. They are dark gold, the color of the stardust that clouds your eyes when your soul flees your body too soon, and you become dizzy and die for a moment. Burakuru has a head jewel like an ampharos, but that shines dark, and her tail does too. Some say she hs many children who are her flock. She has the power to melt into shadow. And she is much swifter than we are. She is big as a ewe, and can outrun any one of the light-folk on four feet, for she can walk on two feet or four. "When her *denki* shoots her dark aura, it can swallow the most powerful light-of-spirit in black. The spirit-light does nothing against her dark powers." "Spirit-light?" said Selden. "Oh...yes." He sat up. "When an ampharos is still growing but getting stronger, there comes the glorious day when he, or she, gains the power to shine from not only the head or tail, but all over, as the denki radiates beautiful white light in an aura all around. Sometimes so bright that they become hidden in their light. And this light protects against other powers. Someday, Selden, both you and I will shine with this deep soul light. "Those gold rings around her body, are how she grabs others into her embrace and turns their shine to a shadow. She can taken them off, and a new one will grow in its place. With the ring in her hand, she will reach out of the shadows and try to get one around your tail. If she succeeds...oh, you will soon die, for without light the soul suffocates, and then after death you are reborn in shadow. You become one of her flock. A curse of Burakuru is a curse worse than death by an enemy. "Some say the Sneasels are her children, but I have also heard that they were made by Mother Megga like everyone. But back then, they were fully feathered and lived among the birds. Burakuru ringed mah- mah sneasel and nyuura survived, but transformed into a creature of the night. But I believe that they can be good nonetheless. The dark ewe, even, may not be all bad. But she lives by shadow, and for us that would bring death." "But...You turned into a Sneasel!" "I did." Chirin hugged Selden, reminding him he was here and keeping him warm. "And I used the light that still lives deep within the sneasel. All creatures are of Mother Megga first. For Bangaa is a child of Mother Megga too. And so is Burakuru. "Once, Burakuru tried to get Phos. And she almost succeeded. She climbed up there somehow and put her rin around Phos's tail." "Oh...What happened then?" "It got suddenly dark as Phos was consumed in shadow. But the flock of Pharos helped to save him. It happened before I was born. They screamed and danced and cried, and all shone their lights so dazzling bright, and it was close, but they shone away the dark and scared Burakuru back into the forest where she still stalks. Phos's *denki* lit again. And day returned. But Burakuru has tried it before, that wasn't the first time she tried it on Phos." "Would she do it...again?" Chirin had wondered that too. With his flock gone, would Phos succumb to a second attack? "I don't know. But there are other flocks out there who would shine to help him. Oh, and the Dark Ewe has tried to get Clef too. Always when Clef is full. That's because Burakuru is sad inside, I think. She wishes she had a light like other pharamps. But no one knows why she was cursed to dark, or how. Some say it was Bangaa, but no one really knows." "Oh," Selden whimpered. "I don't want to go to sleep now. What if Burakuru's in this forest?" Chirin sighed, wishing he hadn't got carried away. "I would protect you, you're my dear friend. I swore by my mama's light, remember? This is a sacred place for us to sleep amd Burakuru would sense that. Wherever she is I'm sure she's taken her steps very far away from here." He licked the lamb's warm little cheek. "We'll be beacons while we sleep. We'll be all right." He said aloud a song for the night, and then a second time so Selden could join in. "Now, let's sleep. I'm so tired and we'll be going to the lake tomorrow." "Okay. Good night." He watched Selden until he closed his eyes, then at last he lay down his own head, and went to sleep, sinking in a mist of slinking night clouds held up by black skeleton trees of november, stretching up towards a big black ewe in the sky. He passed between worlds a few times in the night, and he woke for good just before dawn, still not feeling quite back to balance in his body. His soul still wavered with the pokénip and it would be a long time before he tried to use its bitter-yet-sweet leaves again. It had brought him in contact with an ancestor, and given him great peace and knowledge, but he had almost not survived it. Without the gift that Mure had told him he had, he would still be there now, in that formless dark expanse filled with marowaks and tears. Where was that place? *And why are you helpless, Mure? You weren't helpless to help me. You saved me. Yet you sounded like you were trapped.* He felt no indication that she had heard him. The trees were still against the barely paling sky. Morning breezes were still on their way. Leaves trembled, barely moving, on the alders, but weren't ready to drop yet. Chirin tried to get up without waking Selden, but the lamb's body gave a stretch and squirm, the muscles animating. His little mouth yawned. "Good morning," he said to Chirin, dropping his head to rub his eye. "Are we going to go to the lake now?" "Yes. Now's the time. And I sure am hungry." Chirin was hungry and ready to walk--a lot stronger. He stretched himself out on the ground, letting out an "Ahhhhh," of pleasure. "Oh I love stretching when I wake up. Mother Meggaa!" He stood up and brushed himself off, then realized he had stepped in the offering of last night. The soul of the food had been consumed by the dead. Chirin ate a few of the berries and left the rest, just in case there was any left over for them. He nibbled a few of the remaining green leaves on the alder, passed droppings and headed off. He sniffed the north air and found it clear. "Come on Selden! We journey to the light and keep our tails to the shadows! Hoppips take our feet and...Leap!" His feet left the ground in a running jump. As he landed he staggered through a swath of dizzy stars. He had forgotten that he was still on the mend and had to take things a little easier! They were a blue light and an orange light bounding gently side by side as they walked north in the growing light before dawn. Chirin imagined Phos just waking up and stretching.